When Emily wrote about me spreading happiness in the gym &
When a member in that same week said: “you’re always so bubbly and energetic”.
I laugh because that’s nothing I’ve ever been called before. Depression runs deep in my family and following puberty, I quickly fell into a big pattern of negativity/depression. It becomes second nature at a certain point – and it’s always there as an excuse. I’m not saying I was never happy (or that I don’t still have my days) but I was definitely depressed more often than not.
I write this because I want people to realize how much it is in your power to change your mindset and that you don’t have to naturally be an energetic person to become one. Sometimes having something run in your family is the worst possible thing because it makes you think it’s in your blood and that there’s nothing you can really do; it’s just who you are and you accept it at face value. And that (to me) is the most amazing part of CrossFit. It can be just a workout for some… but for others, it can completely transform you as a person. I think the biggest reason for this is because it truly makes you want to be the best version of yourself. You want to feel good, you want to look good, you want others to see those changes in yourself. Being around a community who wants the same encourages you to try harder to not just accept something because ‘it runs in your family’. It can be so eye-opening to see that the biggest obstacle standing between you and the version of yourself that you want to be is YOU. You don’t have to be negative and depressed – just because you have a tendency towards something doesn’t mean it has to define you.
If you want to be a more positive person BE A MORE POSITIVE PERSON.